August 2012

What am I doing on the top of a fifty foot telephone pole you might ask.  Well, I asked myself the same question.  Now, I have to tell you this was not the first time I did this nor will it be the last I experienced empowerment. It all started about 20 years ago when I was at the end of my rope.  I had an eating disorder and emotional baggage from sexual abuse, which led me to hurt myself in ways you couldn’t imagine. I was planning to leave the world until a woman changed my mind.

“Therapy was like having a scab and having someone rip it off you and send you out raw to heal only to come back the following week to open the wound again.  I spent many years opening wounds that never really healed.”

Five emergency hospitalizations, tons of therapy, self-help programs, support groups, and I was still hurting myself. In search of wholeness, I was so smart I almost missed the easy answers. I felt alone, angry, sad, depressed, isolated, misunderstood, unworthy, broken, self-loathing, and trying to fit other people’s models.

Visiting Dr. Debbie Turner one day she tells me I have to go to see someone and she makes a call to book my trip. I felt I  had tried everything else at this point, had nothing to lose.  I remember meeting this guy and asking him if he could help me stop hurting myself and he just looked at me and smiled.  The guy was Tony Robbins. What I learned that day is that I already had the power to stop. I just needed to decide. Empowerment is an inside job. It is not something someone can give you, it is something you give you.

Today I can do anything I make my mind up to do. Imagine your possibilities once you decide.